tryin to leave current apt with two suitcases max. place your bets.

damn I’m grieving

damn I’m sad (my bff/soul friend/neighbor moved to chile and it just feels so empty in this city/home now)

convincing myself that my pre-poetry reading anxiety is excitement and that it’s cool to feel heart flutters lol

got semi-rejected from the fellowship so obvio y’all I’m blogging again. lol https://scumpoet.com/2025/06/22/dearstranger/

getting that urge to go into total metamorphosis mode in private… like, drop off the radar both online and irl. hmmmmm

uuuuuugggghhhh I’m crushing hard on a poet who lives in a different time zone and I just need a lil kiss a lil smooch. and all I’ve got going for me in terms of pleasure has been eating corn dogs at midnight. Lolol hate to love that for me

it’s 11:10 and I don’t feel like snacking. :( shouldn’t have snacked at 9. now my midnight snack appetite is ruined. smh I fucked up.

its all about hip mobility this summer

can’t stop: checking my email. watching naked and afraid last one standing. eating midnight snack. I just need a yea or no then o can stop checking my email. never stop the others though.

help! my old computer is no longer with me and I lost my favorite online radio bookmarks. I had duuuuu and that one y’all turned me on to… what was it? minimal, sound, experimental aaaahhh I need it back in my life HALP

final interview round complete for the yearlong art/writing fellowship in Bretagne, France! I should get an answer on the 21st of juuuuune omg

She’s eating three corn dogs in bed. She’s watching RHOP reruns. She’s me. I’m LIVING this Saturday night!

in other news, I’ve now sent three handwritten letters to my crush. they’ve all been poetic, sincere. next letter is just gonna be a list of kinks I love/am curious to explore. 🥵🥵🥵💋 I love the way I flirt lol so much fun

made it to the final round for the artist/writer fellowship in France! gonna do the interview on Tuesday.

no shade to roger

so excited to get back to my apartment and sell/give away almost everything I own.

y’all. I’m going to move again. if I get the fellowship I applied for, I’ll be in Brittany, France. if not, I’m moving to CDMX. light a candle for me that I get the fellowship pleeeease!

I’ve been Mia because life just threw me a shit ton of good surprises…-! and I’m dead tired. and busy. and grateful as all get out.

PSA you CAN make it financially after divorce. it’s soooo hard. it takes time. lots. but rediscover yourself and trust. ily anyone who has this fear or is going through it.

it’s been a long four years post divorce. getting back on my feet financially, building the life I desire, relying on faith, courage and trust in my instincts… today I was just given confirmation that the new chapter has arrived… things are getting real. and easier.

handywoman work keeps me sane. and also drives me insane. I love it. until I don’t. then I love it after giving it a break. right now we’re good, me and handywoman work. I’ll keep you updated of any new developments.

tuckered out

I need to make a decisión. When do I leave Oaxaca? do I go back to Guadalajara? do I open ARRE / yeehaw physical space in el DF? or Monterrey with los primos? (no, not Monterrey)

my hometown, population 1000, Texas hill country, “cowboy capital of the world”…just opened a Mexican art museum that I’ve got to check out.

dear river, I thank you for all the good luck you sent me. THE MUSEUM OF CONTEMPORARY ART AND OAXACAN CULTURES ACCEPTED MY PROPOSAL. your cowgirl is gonna create an incredible show of art, non textual, interactive publication and experience in the museum!!!

I’m so lonely (finished last ep of severance) mi casa es una carcel

LAST EP OF SEVERANCE HAS ME CLIMBING MY WALLS YELLING