I feel as though my life without believing in some sort of higher power has declined. my world is often filled with worry and i remember a time in my life where it was the complete opposite as to how it is now i recently got high by myself and one of the things i said was how i was confused with how i got myself in a position where my stress was so normalized. where my rumination ruled over my being and how i would deliberately let one thought take over my whole life.