everyone who uses this app is a lurker by nature so I can take it upon myself to say whatever it is that I want to say with the fact in mind that it may or may not be read. more than likely not.

I used to get into philosophical debates with people on instagram reels comments. but its futile because most people are either too unlearned in the basic ideas or on the contrary they claim to be versed in the long list of "major" philosophers (mostly enlightenment or post enlightenment) that I cant have a conversation with them without having to admit I have never actually read any work of kant or hegel etc.

and I do not think that I should. because to me, beyond the pedantic back and forths that most people online participate, philosophy is only necessary as it pertains to your life and well being. I am projecting when I say: how often do people online over-intellectualize and overindulge in ethical arguments or theological proposals of the past before they discover the state of their own life.

and to elaborate, this is not a question of self improvement or the "locked in" phenomenon that has plagued me and my generation. what I am trying to say, not to whoever is reading this, but to myself, is that wisdom is only a product of living and not the other way around. anything you read that you believe to be wise is only wise to you because you already intuited it.

even as I make this thought clear (in the many times I have) however clear or unclear it may seem to the poor sod that is actually reading this..., this line of thought is no different or unparallel to what mishima said in sun and steel.

live a life of the body and not of thought. (r**ardmaxx).

but this prescription is only necessary to the anxious, and overly organized (neurotic) mind. thoughtlessness as a remedy to my constant state of panic. in this way, too much wisdom is clearly a forerunner to lunacy.

there are some people, I know, who will understand what I am saying beyond the grandiose way I am representing it. to those people, I wish you luck and safety in your battle with excessive rationalization. (neurosis, ocd, schizophrenia). at a certain point the cartesian "I think therefore I am" is a rampant curse on people like you and I. in heaven is where we will do not think but we do am.