free will or free autonomy ?

i cannot be diametrically opposed to people i allow into my life and for this reason i am rededicating my life to lonerism. the solace i feel is immeasurable.

new perfume has notes of pomegranate and incense, i am levitating

feeling extremely free bc i took a midterm i was stressing about. even though i have over five 5 to 10 page papers left for this semester, this was a small win!

i am so grateful that i am around people smarter than me i love to learn

goal of the week- have as many unique experiences as possible in order to reconnect with my inner child. idea 1- drink water out of a glass with a straw on my head. idea 2- sock puppet show. *note to self* do not slip into insanity.

want to drop out but writing on one of my favorite topics this semester… maybe a philosophy degree is worth it in the end… maybe

im thinking that the prime intention of this current administration is to get people on both sides to lose hope. the implications? a deeply pained and nihilistic society that is too depressed or scared to incite change. yeah… not happening.

unfortunately, herbal cigarettes cause lung cancer as well.

the feminine urge to turn into a cat that turns into a snake that turns into the yangtze river

why was one of my favorite songs at 8 “i will possess your heart” by death cab for cutie. jail to my mom and everyone else who was letting me listen to that lmao

i am a vulnerable person because there is nothing that someone can use against me that i have not already used against myself in some way.

song lyrics that express the irrationality of love like… “ i’ll wait for you. i don’t know why.”

based because i grew up weird af

we are native new yorkers and my moms accent is thick and once she told me “my motha was a vodka drinka” and idk, something about the way that sounded made me really appreciate linguistics.

sometimes when i see large groups of people, like 10+ who all appear to be friends i wonder how many of them are people pleasing or if they are really close. i should mind my business

one undeniable truth… hmmm… that i am tired but i cannot sleep

all day writing on buddhist philosophy and concluded with if everything is temporary then so is suffering and therefore the goal of buddhism (to end suffering) is a contradiction. yikes.

spinozas conception of God. i wonder how this influenced nihilism if at all. very bleak in a way.

why can’t the honeymoon phase last forever? oh my God how i miss you. i would crawl through glass to see you as you were once in my eyes.

i love the smell of a warm spring day. the smell of the grass permeates my nose and warm winds carry the smell of the flowers too. my pores absorb it all. i could live in a warm spring day perpetually and never grow tired of it and never grow old.

is cynicism a natural response to the times or are we spoiled and intentionally hopeless

free will or free autonomy ?

i cannot be diametrically opposed to people i allow into my life and for this reason i am rededicating my life to lonerism. the solace i feel is immeasurable.

new perfume has notes of pomegranate and incense, i am levitating

feeling extremely free bc i took a midterm i was stressing about. even though i have over five 5 to 10 page papers left for this semester, this was a small win!

i am so grateful that i am around people smarter than me i love to learn

goal of the week- have as many unique experiences as possible in order to reconnect with my inner child. idea 1- drink water out of a glass with a straw on my head. idea 2- sock puppet show. *note to self* do not slip into insanity.

want to drop out but writing on one of my favorite topics this semester… maybe a philosophy degree is worth it in the end… maybe

im thinking that the prime intention of this current administration is to get people on both sides to lose hope. the implications? a deeply pained and nihilistic society that is too depressed or scared to incite change. yeah… not happening.

unfortunately, herbal cigarettes cause lung cancer as well.

the feminine urge to turn into a cat that turns into a snake that turns into the yangtze river

why was one of my favorite songs at 8 “i will possess your heart” by death cab for cutie. jail to my mom and everyone else who was letting me listen to that lmao

i am a vulnerable person because there is nothing that someone can use against me that i have not already used against myself in some way.

song lyrics that express the irrationality of love like… “ i’ll wait for you. i don’t know why.”

based because i grew up weird af

we are native new yorkers and my moms accent is thick and once she told me “my motha was a vodka drinka” and idk, something about the way that sounded made me really appreciate linguistics.

sometimes when i see large groups of people, like 10+ who all appear to be friends i wonder how many of them are people pleasing or if they are really close. i should mind my business

one undeniable truth… hmmm… that i am tired but i cannot sleep

all day writing on buddhist philosophy and concluded with if everything is temporary then so is suffering and therefore the goal of buddhism (to end suffering) is a contradiction. yikes.

spinozas conception of God. i wonder how this influenced nihilism if at all. very bleak in a way.

why can’t the honeymoon phase last forever? oh my God how i miss you. i would crawl through glass to see you as you were once in my eyes.

i love the smell of a warm spring day. the smell of the grass permeates my nose and warm winds carry the smell of the flowers too. my pores absorb it all. i could live in a warm spring day perpetually and never grow tired of it and never grow old.

is cynicism a natural response to the times or are we spoiled and intentionally hopeless