pain similar to how you can tell rain will be followed by lightning, creeping in during the afternoons like insomnia at night. chronic depression, & pain, & insomnia. all curable by magical marijuana— but i’m trying to be better. withdrawal symptoms acting as an enzyme in this endless cycle. constantly choosing between getting better and feeling better. they ache and clamor for my attention, but i have been so used to it that i can’t tell anymore what has always been here and what isn’t.