each year it seems i go through some sort of major transition just as i begin to feel settled and with each transition i feel my mind accepting that these periods are what make up my life

i think i spent so much time trying to erase the parts of my past that i deemed imperfect
its only as ive begun to look back and realize ive left nothing for myself no documentation no trace of past me

there is nothing to look back on and see as distinctly me which feels especially detrimental in a time of self discovery and attempting to reconnect with the younger me

and so i see now that its of upmost importance to accept and keep the parts of me in transition the parts of my life that arent perfectly poised for the camera
that is the true me no matter how far removed it is from who it is i think i am or want to be

i guess thats what they meant by live in the present