Credit: Photo by Henrik Purienne, instagram @onfilm

Things are beginning to pile up again. I can only hope I have enough strength to get through the week, but something tells me I'll manage. I always do, even in the most challenging situations.

I can't wait until it's over. I can almost taste the freedom. I keep thinking about my plans once I've completed everything. Like traveling-- going from state to state, you know, van life. I know it's easier said than done, but I'm willing to try. I've been stuck in the same place forever; it's about time I widen my horizons through new experiences. I want to live and actually have a life outside the bubble I'm currently in. I feel like time is slipping by, and the chances of traveling in and outside of my country are becoming slim.

The fear of missing out is ever-present. I want to experience as much as possible before it's too late.

It's wild how, in the beginning, building a career and starting a family were my biggest priorities—graduation, marriage, and kids. Now, all I want to do is enjoy the single life while traveling across the U.S. with my mom. Just the thought of dating itself is enough to make me recoil. I still have so much to learn about myself as a person. I'm just not ready for that type of relationship yet. I wish some of the people in my life understood that, but who cares what they think? It's my life at the end of the day, and who knows? Perhaps, with time, I'll know what I want.

Nevertheless, besides hell week and life plans, something else I'm looking forward to is volunteering at the botanical garden again. I've always had some interest in plants and gardening; it was whether I was capable and where to start that made me hesitate. I never expected it to feel so natural. It makes me feel capable enough to start one of my own -not right now, but in the near future.

I'm realizing that I'm more of a hands-on learner than a visual or auditory one. I learn best when I'm actively participating in the actual activity or work. I soak up information a lot quicker compared to when I'm watching videos or listening to/reading instructions. I don't know whether that's a good or bad trait, or what that even says about me and my intellect. All I know is, it's something I'm good at.

I know this post is a bit all over the place or... boring even, but I just thought to share what's been on my mind lately, kind of like a life update. Feel free to let me know what your thoughts are or share updates of your own (if comfortable).